Ну чтож, всё происходило так быстро и  в таких количествах, что описать это я не смогу и морально, и физически. Могу казать одно: жизнь меня продолжает кидать...

Нашла песню (не мою), коорая точь-в-точь про меня написана... 

Drew looks at me, 
I fake a smile so he won't see 
That I want and I'm needing everything 
that we should be 
I'll bet she's beautiful, 
that girl he talks about 
And she's got everything that I have to live without 

Drew talks to me, I laugh 
cause it's so just funny 
That I can't even see anyone 
when he's with me 
He says he's so in love, 
he's finally got it right, 
I wonder if he knows 
he's all I think about at night 

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar 
The only thing that keeps me wishing 
on a wishing star 
He's the song in the car 
I keep singing, 
don't know why I do 

Drew walks by me, can he tell 
that I can't breathe? 
And there he goes, so perfectly, 
The kind of flawless I wish I could be 
She'd better hold him tight, 
give him all her love 
Look in those beautiful eyes and know 
she's lucky cause 

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar 
The only thing that keeps me wishing on 
a wishing star 
He's the song in the car 
I keep singing, 
don't know why I do 
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light 
I'll put his picture down and maybe 
Get some sleep tonight 

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar 
The only one who's got enough of me 
to break my heart 
He's the song in the car 
I keep singing, 
don't know why I do 
He's the time taken up, 
but there's never enough 
And he's all that I need 
to fall into… 

Drew looks at me, 
I fake a smile so he won't see...

Taylor Swift

От этой песни на душе становиться легче, пропадает та пустота, которую чувствуешь в такой ситуации… Могу сказать, что только эта песня помогла мне научиться прощать, забывать и видеть себя со стороны, чтож, и снова спасибо музыке...